Trying hard does not always mean moving forward.

"Naona kijana anajipanga?”

“Yes.”

“ Bado ujapata Ka job hivi?”

“Bado.”

“Online things?”

“ yeah najaribu kusaka saka.”

Then that look wueh.!!

That pause where someone is trying to decide whether to congratulate you or feel sorry for you.

Because in Kenya, “trying” sits somewhere between hope and struggle," kuwa vitu zitakuwa sawa lakini wapi,ni Grace ya God ndio inatupush."

From the outside, my life looks like it’s moving.

I’m always busy trying to figure out things to see which can go through.

Always learning something new .

Always saying niko poa.

But inside, it’s just pressure layered on pressure.

Most mornings I wake up with a plan, but not seeing any thing promising.

Not a dream.

A plan to survive the day without panicking.

A plan to stretch what I have.

A plan to look like I’m okay.

I’ve learned how to sound confident even when I’m unsure of what is next.

How to...