Plateau

I had every intention of writing something before the year ends. I even have a title ‘Cough’. I could give you a thousand guesses what this post is going to be about, and I can bet even on the twelfth hundred guess you still won’t have got it right. Go on. Try.

I have it all in my head. It’s funny, well, in my head. But all I’ve done since the festivities started is sleep like that fat hedgehog I posted yesterday (If you didn’t see it just imagine a really fat hedgehog blacked out on a bed). In fact, I was sleeping so much if I didn’t know otherwise I’d have been worried. Mùndù mùùgì ndarì mìheere ya ùhoro. He he. That’s the kikuyu version of if you know, you know.

I was mentally doing a recap of my year and the general description for me is plateau. I feel like it’s just been. Nothing major happened. No major achievements. No high highs and no low lows. Just there. Flatline. Like the continuous hum of a generator.

I’ve had a lot of fun little moments. I’ve met incredibly wonderful people. I’ve become closer to some people. I’ve grown 😅😅. This is physically. I’ve been told enough times by people. Last week I saw someone who I haven’t seen in exactly a year and they told me nimekuwa kanono 😅😅. Eeehh mimi. Mjue kule mtaishi . But also, growth as a person. I think my favourite aspect of growth is how I’m more vocal. Things I’d normally let pass? Not anymore. I’m still working on balance because as someone who used to ‘it’s okay’ my way out of conflicts, sometimes, a lot of times, it feels like I’m spoiling for a fight.

Njesh told me it’s a pendulum. See how you let it go...