fell in love with a married Jamaican man

I (25F) he's ( 45M), and now I’m questioning everything. Why cheat if you’re happy at home? 🇯🇲

I’ve been seeing this married man for almost a year now. When we first met, I asked him if he was married, and he told me yes. We met on a dating site, and he didn’t wear a wedding ring, so I assumed he probably wasn’t happy in his marriage or that something was missing.

Months passed, and somewhere along the way, I fell HARD for this man. He’s almost 45, and I’m only 25, so yes, there’s a pretty big age gap. Initially, this was only supposed to be an arrangement. I never expected to develop real feelings for him, let alone fall in love. Sometimes I wonder if there’s something wrong with me for allowing myself to get so emotionally attached to someone who was never truly available.

Anyway, one day I was scrolling through TikTok when a page popped up with a video of him kissing another woman. I can’t even explain how I felt seeing that. It was like someone had...